ai ti re' mesh

ai ti re' mesh team
i dunno why .. but i got some strange feeling with this picture ..
maybe this is the last time we can take picture together ..

Indosat ITRMS Project Dec '05 - March 06

Some May Say

Some may say
I'm wishing my days away
no way
and if it's the price I pay
some say
tomorrow's another day
you stay
I may as well pay

the police - walking on the moon

tired and still ...

after one day bed resting. and wishing can get better for this cold, but it is not.

getting worst. and unfortunately i forgot my tissue roll. i left it at my home.

 

i wake up so early. 5.30 i think. because i wanna to take a bus, so i can get at i-sat at 7.00 in the morning. damn man it was 6.00 am and already crowded. i can't have a seat at bussway from blok m till I-sat. and after that i still have to take a walk around 300 m.

 

it's cold breeze while i entering main lobby, there are only few people there .. quite dark cos not all the light is on. and i just take a walk to next building to go to my place at 5th floor of KPPTI building.

 

when i got there all people get suprised becos i come very early in the morning and the one who got more suprises is me , because i know for some people live far from here. so when i ask one of them what time did they left the home and they said .. i was late , cos i go off from home at 5.

 

geesss .. at 5 in the morning ... no thx .. at that time im still under my blanket .... hehehe

 

i starting this morning to login to some Unix box .. so there are 40 box on my list and i have finished 20 box. and there are 20 more to go ..

 

man .. i got wrong coffe today ... i think it because already expired i think .. and it make my stomach pain... eww .. and tomorrow i got lot of meeting schedule. and i think i better run away or what ?

 

above of all ... there are thing that make me to think .... but the one that i think is not in here ...

 

- sighs -

 

as i lay down

waiting

beetween in longing

just the wind

and all this silences torturing ...

 

as i lay down ..

n my soul free to meet the one that i love ..

 

fak tap ...

since the beginning of this project .. i was worried that we will more trouble than the last. and now shit happen .. all the trouble that come now facing me .. and i am the one who's to blame for something unreason things.

 

im tired man .. very ..

i think i need more than a vacation

oughs ... sakit

lengkap sudah penderitaan .. dari panas dalam , batuk pilek ... sampe akhirnya ini dada gua kok juga nyeri ya .. takut jadinya ... mana besok masih full meeting .. n si geblek ini juga masih nyuruh gue ke kantor sedangkan gue sendiri kudu ada di KPPTI jam 9 pagi .. gak ngerti dah ...

 

panas dalamnya makin berasa .. ini kayanya masih demam ....

 

- sighs -

the returning

waa ... are u too busy ahh ..

"Muay ... is it v day today ? "
"yes .. why ? "
"no .. nothing .. i just realize today is a v day "
"how do u know ? a friend telling u ?
"nope , i just realize when i see all my friends status on my YM list "
" wah .. why u forgot bout date of this day, and all happening today ? u too busy are u ? "
" no .. nothing ... " .. " ehmm .. Muay .... "
" yes "
" thx to remind me ... "
" nvm ... and wish u have a nice flight "
" ya ... i wish ... "


16.54 ...
it is a funny things, it's a valentine day today. but i didnot realize. even i see all the people in pink colour.
i just started to realize today is a valentine day when i see my friends status on their YM status. and after that i asking to my new friend's Muay " is it a valentine day today ?" she just laughing ..

are u forgot ? u too busy to works even u did not realize that today is a valentine's day.
whoa .. so i forgot everything already .. i forgot this is v day, i forgot today is bunga bday also .. . . man ... everything going too fast .. i think something wrong inside me .. i can feel it but i dunno where it is ...

bad for me ...

..
this year gonna tottaly different ...
just hoping can pass this year ..
thx Muay to remind me ..


just a simple talk .. at the end of today class ..

how can i forgot everything ...
this year ... everything change so fast ...
and this year ... never gonna be like yesterday ...

just like Max last nite .. while we had beer at China Doll ...
"Shit Happen "

eniwei ...

thx Muay ....

lagi
ku terpuruk pada keramaian
botol botol menari
mengalirkan asa sedikit demi sedikit
'tuk sejenak melupakan semua yang tertinggal
tapi aku masih saja terdiam

senyum senyum menggoda
kedip mata nakal
belaian jari jari lentik
yang terus mengitari pundak dan kepala
tapi aku masih juga terdiam ...

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'China Doll - Boat Quay
a nite bfore V'day

a sms ..

" i have looking around our house and remembering everything that have been done in here. i don't think i could survive with this marriage. JaLu, i want a divorce "