Affectation was an early sign
Of a twisted mind
All virtues had faded away
Apprehension made her cold
But warm she was inside
The child within her died
And left her with a heart of stone

Surface anger was a thin disguise
Yet at night she cries
Behold the pain in her eyes
Degradation was a grind
Her true self left behind
Compassion you will find
Hidden by a veil of deception

And so the story goes
That's the way she chose to live her life
And anybody knows
The way it feels when you hurt inside
She's running from herself
The game of life in which she played

Looking back upon the early years
There was room for tears
But she chose to push them away
Condemnation was a vice
She chose to roll the dice
And so she paid the price
Misery was her only friend

Inner feelings were a neutral zone
Though she tried to condone
In a world she faced so alone
Her salvation came too late
And on that day she died
No one even cried
Forgot about the veil of deception

And so the story goes
That's the way she chose to live her life
And anybody knows
The way it feels when your hurt inside
She's running from herself
The game of life in which she played

..
to a friend
....

Disgraced Rose

Deeper into the Blue sky
Illusionary dreams are Whiter
Wings scatter To a thousand pieces
The Original Sin Is bloodier
The calling voice Farther
We fulfill ourselves For that coming day

Sanctus, E-u Sanctus,
(Are we more Holy, Are we more Holy,)
Où est la Lumière . . . Ah, c'est toi?
(Where is the light . . . Is that you?)

The currents breezes Higher
Eternity more Sapphire
With our wandering Memories

The lake Darkens
The hymn sings out Pure
We waken and Open our eyes

Only You
Of so Far away,
It falls to the ground This rose
O-la Sanctus . . .

Are we more holy . . . ?

I'm a fallen angel,
Fallen for the high,
A shamanic apprentice,
Until the day I die.
I don't see life.
I don't see death.
It's all just shades of grey.
I don't see how.
I don't see why.
They're the same anyway.

...
Quo Vadis ? ....

I will wait for you in Baton Rouge
I'll miss you down in New Orleans
I'll wait for you while she slips in something comfortable
I'll miss you when I'm slipping in between
If you wrap yourself in daffodils
I will wrap myself in pain
If you're the queen of California,
baby I am the king of the rain

The moon is a satellite
and wont you fall down on me now,
cause Im all alone, you ain't coming home
we just settle down down into bone
I said I'm all alone. you ain't coming home
we just settle down down down into bone

.miss u.

Amendment I

Congress shall make no law respecting an
establishment of religion, or prohibiting the
free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom
of speech, or of the press; or the right of the
people peaceably to assemble, and to petition
the Government for a redress of grievances.

SELF, SACRIFICE, EVERYNIGHT
AND TOGETHER WE PAID A PRICE IN BLOOD
THAT SPILLED OUT THROUGH THE YEARS
AND ANOTHER DAY PASSES AWAY
LOOK TO THE BLACK, DRAWN FARTHER BACK
LOOK TO EACH DAY,SEE THE DECAY
TIMES I'VE HAD, GOOD AND BAD
WIN OR LOSE, THIS IS WHAT I CHOOSE...

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