I would say I'm sorry
If I thought that it would change your mind
But I know that this time
I've said too much
Been too unkind

I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try and
Laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
'cause boys don't cry
Boys don't cry

I would break down at your feet
And beg forgiveness
Plead with you
But I know that
It's too late
And now there's nothing I can do

So I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try to
Laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
'cause boys don't cry

I would tell you
That I loved you
If I thought that you would stay
But I know that it's no use
That you've already
Gone away

Misjudged your limits
Pushed you too far
Took you for granted
I thought that you needed me more

Now I would do most anything
To get you back by my side
But I just
Keep on laughing
Hiding the tears in my eyes
'cause boys don't cry
Boys don't cry

--------------
i promise u to not to cry
but i can't
and still cry till this mornin
still thinkin bout this life it's never been a fair
why .... the question never ended ...

"Jalu .. maukah kamu menyanyikan satu lagu untuk aku .. sebelum aku pergi tidur .... Satu lagu saja untukku ...
dan itu sudah cukup ... karena dengan itu aku akan merasakan kamu ada disisiku sekarang .. satu saja dan sudah cukup ... dan jangan kamu menangis lagi ... aku tidak mau kamu menangis malam ini .."

.dalam suatu percakapan melalui telpon 01.01.04 00.50 waktu jakarta .


- Deng Cia Ji . Penang Adventist Hospital . HBV patient -

New Year,
new day a risen on the horizon for ever more,
more thoughts to remember,
do it simple,
do it sweet,
many a year and day can be lost when you frown a lot.

-met tahun baru JaLu -

You laugh,
you cry,
no one knows why,
But oh,
the thrill of it all.
You're on the ride,
You might as well,
open your eyes.

You will fly and you will crawl.
No such thing as you've lost it all.
God knows even angels fall.

akhirnya
dapet server baru .. si pingkih ternyata yg punya ma si david
trus di tunjukin poto anak mrk bedua
hehe lucu
jadi kebayang kalo satu waktu nanti aku punya anak yg lucu spt mrk
ntah kapan

well
pointnya new version of gatorz.org n dreamrain akan muncul
mudah mudahan bisa di selesain in time
bela belain deh ini bgadang buat ngerjain itu

..
tapi aku rindu kamu malam ini ...

hari ini
masih saja hujan seperti kemarin
seakan tak pernah berhenti

hari ini
masih saja rindu seperti kemarin
seakan tak pernah berhenti

aku merindui mu di tengah hujan dimalam ini
dan masih

...
i miss u

Kupernah mencintaimu
cintaku mungkin
Belum terbiar dalam jiwaku
Tapi hendaknya dia tidak merisaukan kau lagi
Tak akan aku sakiti kau lagi
Aku pernah mencintaimu tanpa kata,
tanpa harapan,

Dengan rasa malu kini ,
dengan rasa cemburu yang lebur
Aku mencintaimu dengan jujur,
dengan halus mesra

ps.
untuk Tuhanku, Mama n Papa, my Brother Rico n juga kamu

O holy night, the stars are brightly shining;
It is the night of the dear Savior’s birth!
Long lay the world in sin and error pining,
Till He appeared and the soul felt its worth.
A thrill of hope, the weary soul rejoices,
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn.
Fall on your knees, O hear the angel voices!
O night divine, O night when Christ was born!

...
selamat natal JaLu

ps.
harusnya kamu ada disini malam ini

why do birds suddenly appear,
everytime you are near?
just like me, they long to be,
close to you......

why do stars fall down from the sky,
everytime you walk by?
just like me, they long to be,
close to you.........

on the day that you were born the angels got together,
and decided to create a dream come true,
so they sprinkled moondust in your hair
and golden starlight in your eyes of blue...

that is why, all the boys [or: girls] in town,
follow you, all around,
just like me, they long to be,
close to you.......

on the day that you were born the angels got together,
and decided to create a dream come true,
so they sprinkled moondust in your hair
and golden starlight in your eyes of blue...

that is why, all the boys or girls in town,
follow you, all around,

just like me, they long to be,
close to you.........

..
miss u

hai

i miss u

in heaven and earth

honest

i miss u

Bete
dah capek capek ngebut buat
malah ga bisa di upload

gelap

btw

i miss u tonight

Saat ku terbayang Wajah anggun angkuhmu
Kucoba 'tuk menjauh Saat - saat dekat denganmu
Melupakan dirimu.....


Bayang - bayangmu kasih
Slalu hadir dalam gelisahku
Nada - nada asmara
Kan terhilang sekilas kau ada
Bayang - bayangmu kasih
Mewarnai asa dalam duka
Nada - nada asmara
Kan terhilang sekejap kau lepas


Bayang-bayang slalu ada
Ketika kupejamkan mataku

ps.
i miss u
i wish u can be here for christmass