for angeline edelweis

bisa terbayangkan
saat kau datang
tangisan pertama yang kau suarakan
katakan pada dunia
bahwa kau ada ..
saat ayah bundamu tersenyum
melihat kehadiranmu
air mata yang menetes
adalah kebahagiaan
tangisan yang terdengar
adalah keceriaan

karena kau
adalah malaikat ayah bundamu

..
for our new family member
angeline edelweis rosemary

..
wish i can see u for the first time too

lebih baik

apakah yang akan kamu lakukan jika kamu harus pergi meninggalkan semua apa yang kamu cintai .. the only yang masih tertinggal dalam hati .. dan melupakannya ..

what would u do ?

saat semua yang kamu lakukan sepertinya tidak ada artinya sama sekali ..
saat kata kata hanyalah tinggal kata kata ...
tak ada lagi yang bisa merubah .. semua menjadi abu abu .. antara kebeneran dan kebohongan tak ada lagi pembatas diantaranya ..

saat suara suara di belakang kita terdengar lebih keras dan lebih menusuk semakin dalam, semakin kita bergerak akan semakin sakit rasanya .. dan mereka akan semakin berteriak ..

aku
hanya bisa menatap .. kapankah semua ini berakhir .. dan mereka bisa melihat apa yang sebenarnya terjadi .. sehingga mereka tahu apa yang mereka teriakan ..

kadang lebih baik ku tikam saja diriku dari pada membunuh mereka ...

i used to be lucky

So sad
Everything's goin' bad
In the dreams I've had
They all laugh at what I have

Tell me that it ain't true
When I wake I'm still me
Man, I wish I could once be you

Now I used to feel lucky,
'till I spent some time with you

selesai sudah

selesai sudah
kata kata yg terucap
tak akan bisa berubah

selesai sudah

..

maafkan aku anakku
aku harus pergi meninggalkanmu

..
remember me

saat hujan menepi

saat hujan menepi
maka tak akan ada lagi
yang perlu di tangisi ..

..

my last ..

thx for all ..
If you read this line, remember not the hand that wrote it

satu matahari

hanya ada satu matahari
yang akan selalu bersinar
saat embun pertama
baru saja jatuh menetes
pada keheningan pagi

dan hanya ada satu matahari
dalam diri ini ...

..
dirimu
ramabanu aditya

hollow years

He's just the kind of man
You hear about
Who leaves his family for
An easy out
They never saw the signs
He never said a word
He couldn't take another day

..

She's not the kind of girl
You hear about
She'll never want another
She'll never be without
She'll give you all the signs
She'll tell you everything
Then turn around and walk away

...

The noise that you'll hear
Is the crashing down of hollow years

- Dream Theatre - Hollow Years -

what have you done

I,
I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away
What have you done now

Why,
Why does fate make us suffer
There's a curse between us
Between me and you

What have you done now

waiting

this question haunted me
with pain and disgrace
wont be gone
still in the front of me ..

darkest dawn ..
shattered skies
rain fall down ..

and i lay down waiting for my death come .

jika

jika pada saatnya
kau harus pergi
tinggalkan diriku
ku ingin
kau tahu
bahwa aku tetap mencintaimu ...

anakku

pernah

Pernah kutawarkan isi hatiku
Tuk redakan setiap luka hatimu
Pernah kuungkap tuk milikimu
Kau membisu apakah itu jawabmu

Pernah kukira ini tentang cinta
Oh ternyata hanya sahabat setia
Pernah kau minta bunuh cintaku
Kau membisu takkan pernah jawabku

Semua yang kurasakan tak mungkin dapat kuhapuskan
Walau kau bersamanya menjalin kisah cinta nyata
Dan terluka…

Setiap tetes airmata
Selalu kau menangis di pelukku
Namun setiap saat kau bahagia
Selalu kau memilih bersamanya


Pernah terpikir tuk tinggalkanmu

...
Club 80 - Cinta Dan Luka

..
buat kamu ...

miss him

miss him

u should rest

gue gak ngerti knapa dokter gue memberikan gue obat penenang dosis tinggi

..
dan that drugs not working to me


- sighs -

Picture of you

I've been looking so long at these pictures of you
That I almost believe that they're real
I've been living so long with my pictures of you
That I almost believe that the pictures are
All I can feel

Remembering
You standing quiet in the rain
As I ran to your heart to be near
And we kissed as the sky fell in
Holding you close
How I always held close in your fear

Remembering
You running soft through the night
You were bigger and brighter and wider than snow
And screamed at the make-believe
Screamed at the sky
And you finally found all your courage
To let it all go

Remembering
You fallen into my arms
Crying for the death of your heart
You were stone white
So delicate
Lost in the cold
You were always so lost in the dark

Remembering
You how you used to be
Slow drowned
You were angels
So much more than everything
Hold for the last time then slip away quietly
Open my eyes
But I never see anything

If only I'd thought of the right words
I could have held on to your heart
If only I'd thought of the right words
I wouldn't be breaking apart
All my pictures of you

Looking so long at these pictures of you
But I never hold on to your heart
Looking so long for the words to be true
But always just breaking apart
My pictures of you

There was nothing in the world
That I ever wanted more
Than to feel you deep in my heart
There was nothing in the world
That I ever wanted more
Than to never feel the breaking apart
All my pictures of you

rockstar

rock never dies

nothing as it seems

nothing as it seems

selama 3 minggu ini gue kalo dah di itung sudah bed rest slama 6 hari. dan ternyata pisik gue down bukan krn emang gue down tapi karena pikiran.

sejak dari kabar terakhir yg gue tahu .. semuanya akhirnya menghancurkan apa yang ada di angan angan .. dan gue skarang hanya menjadi daydreamer.
menganggap seolah olah everything is fine ...

dari mulai natal yang gua sendirian .. sakit demam tinggi hingga akhirnya pada new year eve pun gue juga sendiri .. bobo dirumah .. gak ada sapa sapa dan tidak sama sapa sapa.

semua pengalihan tidak ada yg pengaruh .. blank .. gelap semuanya .. sepi ..

hari kemarin .. hari ini dan esok masih saja sama .. tidak ada yg berubah .. all same ..

- sighs -

sepertinya sudah hilang semua ..

jikapun aku mau utk memulai sesuatu yg baru .. tapi tidaklah bisa .. gak pernah bisa .

i wish

I wish I had an angel
For one moment of love
I wish I had your angel


tonight

im the moonshield

Tried of dull ages,
I walk the same ground,
collecting the tragedies still
Hollow ambitions in a hollow mind
carried my cross to the hill
And how I lust for the dance and the fire
deep of the nectarine sunset to drink
spill me the wind and its fire
to steal of the colours

Shattered hope became my guide
and grief and pain my friends
a brother pact in blood-ink penned
declared my silent end
Naked and dying under worlds of silent stone
reaching for the moonshield that once upon us shone

im the moonshield

Tree of Pain

My pain is as deep as my roots
The yearning, the Hurting
What am I to do?
Indeed I plant seeds for the path I wald
And my voice helps them grow like water
When I talk but I'm hurting y'all
You didn't die in vain, your thought
With me remains and your soul gives me
Strength to face another day
Without you

In this tree of pain
Till the day I see you again...

..
taken fr
Soulfly - Tree of Pain