awal dan akhir

tahun ini ..
aku mengawali nya dengan sesuatu yang baik .. kerja baru, pindah ke luar negeri, bertemu dengan seseorang yang mencintai aku dengan apa adanya .. semua diawali dengan indah .. tak ada yang bisa kurasakan kecuali semua yang indah ..

seiring dengan perjalanan 2011, semua berlalu begitu cepat .. hingga akhirnya suatu hal yang harus membuatku terjatuh lagi.. diawali dengan perginya dia, orang yang selama ini kucinta .. begitu saja tanpa pesan pesan, dan kemudian pun aku harus memutuskan utk meninggalkan apa yang sudah aku dapatkan disini .. hanya demi dia .. walaupun aku tahu kemungkinan untuk mendapatkan dia itu amatlah kecil .. tapi aku akan tetap berusaha utk mendapatkan dia kembali .. kali ini, kukorbankan karir aku demi seorang wanita, wanita yang ternyata adalah sejatiku .. yang selama ini aku mencari ..

dan aku sadari, tempatku bukan disini .. seharusnya aku tidak pergi tapi tetap di jakarta .. bersama dia ..

tahun ini .. aku akhiri dengan semua kehilangan ..
termasuk kehilangan jiwa aku ..

sudah hampir sebulan ..
aku masih menginginkannya

Fade to black - Metallica

Life, it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters, no one else

I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can't be real
Can't stand this hell I feel

Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he's gone

No one but me can save myself, but it's too late
Now I can't think, think why I should even try

Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now I will just say goodbye,

*Goodbye*

in the end

In spite of the way you were left me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me I'm surprised it got so

Delicate by Damien Rice

We might kiss when we are alone
When nobody's watching
We might take it home
We might make out when nobody's there
It's not that we're scared
It's just that it's delicate

So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've known
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?

We might live like never before
When there's nothing to give
Well how can we ask for more
We might make love in some sacred place
The look on your face is delicate

So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've known
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?

So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've known
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?

....

why u let me fall in when u know it will not working in the end ?
why we have to keep all in secret ..

what u tought about u

when u asking other people to give their attention to you, have you ever think to give your attention to them ?